I hate myself

I hate myself

I hate myself for making so many mistakes

I hate myself for not saying the right words

I hate myself for being so teary-eyed

I hate myself for always hurting myself

I hate myself for not being the right person

And trust me the list goes on. I just hate myself for hating so much of me.

And so I went for a quest.

In the search of finding someone who would love me more than I could ever love myself and through that someone I would learn to love myself.

I looked everywhere. I searched for years. Until one day, I found that someone.

It took me a long time to realize that that someone has been there all this while

That someone showed compassion

Taught me patience

And above all showed me love

That someone is Allah.

For He is the only one capable of making me happy

For He is the only one always there to comfort my sorrow

For He is the only one out there always protecting me

For He is the only one capable of healing my wounds

And above all, for He is the One who loves me more than I love myself

Praise to the Most Merciful for all these blessings

For this life, this family, these friends

There is nothing more I could ask for

I love you Allah. I really do.